Am I planning to relapse? I found out by relapsing and going back into my disease of compulsive overeating that the disease gets stronger. Compulsive overeating is a progressive disease. Even though we get better,we are not cured of our disease. We only have a daily reprieve from our disease,as the Big Book of AA says. As a relapse survivor,I realized that if I am not planning to work and to grow my recovery,then I am planning to relapse.
Do I have a sponsor? Am I working the steps with my sponsor? Does my sponsor have a sponsor? Is my sponsor working the steps with a sponsor?
Do I make regular phone calls other than calling in my food plan or calling my sponsor?
Do I call newcomers? Do I call a buddy or a sponsor when depression or fears causes the “committee” to re-adjourn in my head? Do I reach out to people in the program who are struggling with the food or with life?
Do I protect my anonymity? Do I protect other members’ anonymity?
Do I attend meetings regularly? Do I share at meetings? Do I share my experience,strength,and hope,or do I dump my self-pity,self-loathing,and fear onto an unsuspecting meeting?
Do I use the tool of writing to journal,to explore my recovery or to work the steps?
Do I read the OA Twelve and Twelve,the Big Book,the AA Twelve and Twelve,
Overeaters Anonymous,Lifeline,etc.?
Am I following a plan of eating? Who put that food plan together? Is my food plan nutritionally balanced? Does my food plan give me enough to eat? Does my food plan give me too much to eat? Do I call,write,or email my plan of eating in to a sponsor or an OA buddy before I eat?
Am I giving service at a meeting,intergroup,regional,or national level? Do I have a talent or aptitude that I can put to use working to spread the message of OA?
Am I spending time daily in prayer and meditation?
Am I working the steps? What step am I on? How long have I been working on that step?
I have a wonderful life today because I work the program of recovery. I do not work a perfect program,but I set goals to improve my program of recovery because I know that the disease is stronger now because I am stronger. I cannot take my disease for granted. I practice letting go of self will. I use the tools,I work the steps,I learn to let my Higher Power and the people in the program of Overeaters Anonymous help me when I need help. I do not have to recover from this disease alone. I cannot recover from this disease alone.
Am I planning to keep my recovery or am I planning to relapse?
Neill Mc